Silentsarah's Journals

Fear Is He

Her heart beating fast

Her mind running away form her soul

Her voices crying out in pain

If only everyone new that it was all in vein

Her blood rushes through her body

Itâ�™s cold and quiet no one willing to hear

You can actually smell the fear

You can hear the whispers in the dark

The fear moves closer, the shadows start talking

Is it something or nothing, is it crawling or just walking

He feels her breathing; he smells the thing sheâ�™s fearing

He moves closer, touches her cheek

She flinches as he clinches onto her arm oh so tight

He looks deeper into her eyes, searching every inch

Of her soul in sight, guiding his darkness, through her veins

Her life begins slipping as he carries on gripping

Digging his nails into her delicate skin

His heart starts beating with hers together they are one

Now no way theyâ�™ll never be undone

Her fear is this if a man grips onto you so tight

Neva but always keeps u insight

Heâ�™ll drown your soul, crush your thoughts

Dig a hole for the truth, and end up breaking your heart

Sarah-Jayne

Darkness To Light

She woke up drowning in her pain

Her eyes open and ashamed

She had fallen many times before pushed around,

Broken as she fell to the floor.

She couldnâ�™t take the pain anymore,

Her soul was bruised, cracked she

Felt as if she was sinking, drowning

Being held back.

She needed something, anything to take

Away the dark black hole.

The pain was eating her alive without

That something, anything she possibly

Wonâ�™t survive

Her hand reached out, but no one could hear,

No one could see that she was drowning fast,

Her eyes glimmering with light as she grabbed

The nearest object that was insight.

She had done it many times before,

Cutting close, not too deep being careful,

Might just leave a scar, but she went too far.

The blade slipped, cut her deep,

As she fell to the floor she didnâ�™t even weep.

She felt the pain fading away with every

Breath she took, the darkness was disappearing

She felt safe as she knew he wouldnâ�™t be interfering

With her life ever again.

As she closed her eyes for one last time,

Everything was silent, everything was still.

In away she knew the darkness would keep her

But she had no idea that the light would eventually save her.

Sarah-Jayne

Dont Belong

I feel so alone

Sometimes it feels as if I

Could come undone

But it only just begun.

Crying, screaming eventually bleeding

Running, hiding but no one is seeking

Tripping, falling I here someone calling.

I get up to look who it is

Bleeding, crying, no one is smiling

I ask whatâ�™s wrong, he said I donâ�™t belong.

I donâ�™t belong, but how can that be

Was happy, smiling, running but not crying

It always felt as if I was flying.

But someone came along, said she didnâ�™t belong

He chipped at her soul inch by inch

Grabbing, taking eventually said he was faking

Pulling, tugging but no one was helping

She got up one last time, sick of crying

Not ever smiling, no way that her soul was dying.

He looked at her and said â�œyou dare to look at meâ�

â�œHow can I if I have nothing more to bareâ�

Her soul was damaged, but not yet broken

Her heart cold, cracked, but not yet frozen.

She looked at him, eyes swollen

She knew no one would be calling

And said its too bad as I stand here alone

Iâ�™m suppose to be undone, shameless, sad,

Never but always glad.

How can I be alone

When you said I donâ�™t belong.

Sarah-Jayne